Grin.
No, not that big.
Show a few teeth...
There, that's more like it.
Go wash your face,
That's better.
Your cheeks are less flushed,
So rejoin your friends.
Someone just told a joke,
Laugh along.
Let the sparkle reach your eyes,
Now no one'll notice they're red and puffy.
"Hey, how are you?"
Tell them you're good
and re-direct the question to them.
You're too quiet,
and your mind is wandering...
Join the conversation.
Don't forget to
Smile,
Smile,
Don't forget to
Smile,
and they wont suspect a thing...
I'm so sorry
But i can't take it anymore
love me, hate me..
My eyes are filled with tears
and my heart is drenched in ice
there's one thing that makes me feel
aside from yor voice
and as i drag the blade
across my now painless wrist
I know
somewere deep inside
im hoping you'll notice
Realize im bleeding
Over you
That you'll come save me..
But i know..
You'll never pull me back up
no..
You'll shove me back farther
and i...
wish i could see your eyes one last time
Pray to something that your heart weren't empty
My love is meaningless to you
even though..
i gave everyting to you
I should have known..
Im nothing...
May
-hide behind a bloodshot red scarf
-never say what I'm really thinking
-be as open as a book written in another language
-prefer to wear white in the dark
-wonder what right someone has to tell the truth if people refuse to believe them
-love or hate you depending on the position of the sun
-think that chasing what I cannot have keeps me sane
-prefer featherlight lies over heavyweight truths
-actually speak like this inside my head
-fear that I may run out of skin to write my lifestory on
-ask you this: "Would you rather love someone out of necessity or choice?"
Two steps forward one step back
A thing in the shadows, ready to attack
Won't sit and stare, can hardly wait
To hightail it out, run for the gate
To shut the door and lock it tight
Is all I want to do with fright
There's something lurking way down there
The monster underneath the stair.